soooo tired!

I hate to psych myself out, little one, but I have been sooo tired the last couple of days. I went to bed at 9pm both last night and the night before and I just awoke from a little rest at work. I had kind of forgotten how tired you get when you are pregnant *yawn* but it's quickly coming back to me. Perhaps I am tired just 'cuz... perhaps not. Only time will tell...

other symptoms I am either imagining or truly feeling: headaches the last 2 nights, before my 9:00 bedtime, and today, weird tummy/back cramps.

Will you or won't you

Well, baby M, we've done our part, now it's up to you! On Sunday, January 6, 2013, I had an IUI procedure, implanting daddy's sperm into my uterus. Now, we just wait to see if that created a viable pregnancy.

WOW. Now that we are here, at this point, I am scared to death. Excited. Nervous. Thrilled. Overwhelmed. Woah. Honestly, kiddo, I don't know how I am feeling! I want you... am I ready for you? Can I truly love you like I love Hudson???

Truth is... I already do. But I worry about the balance. Can I give you the attention you deserve, the attention Hudson had, and still give him the attention he deserves and is used to??

On Friday, December 28, I finally decided to call the doctor's office. TMI warning...

See, on Christmas, I had some spotting. And nothing since. So, since the 28th would be day 3 if we counted the spotting as day 1, I decided to call. They told me to come right over, and since their office and my office basically share a parking lot, I rushed over. The nurse practitioner Kim got me right in, did an ultrasound to check my uterine lining, measure my ovaries and see if we were ready to start. Everything looked good, so she gave me my prescriptions for Femara and Metformin and sent me on my way. My new best friend Kim made my whole weekend! Today, December 31, I have only 2 more Femara, which I will take tomorrow, "cycle day 7." On Friday, January 4 "cycle day 10", I start my routine of peeing-on-a-stick to check for ovulation. If/WHEN I get my smiley face, we call to schedule intrauterine insemination. So exciting!

*fun fact: On January 3, 2011, my pee stick smiled at me, and on January 4, 2011, we made your brother, Hudson. The first week of January is lucky for this mama!!!

I love you baby!!
~mama

Having a secret is fun... and oh, so hard!!

Your mama is soooo bad at keeping secrets! I want to scream from the rooftops that we are trying for a baby again! But then I think of how much fun it will be to surprise our loved ones. So, while I want to share with the world, I am only sharing with a few people, people who know it's a secret and/or don't see other people I don't want to know. Because, I've got to tell someone!

Your Aunt Sarah asked us yesterday when baby #2 would be here. I simply told her that we were happy with just us and might never have another. But, oh, I wanted to say "oh, September~ish if all goes as planned!"

I have been waiting all week excited and nervous about starting my period. Excited to get everything started, but nervous that it would be a day that the clinic was closed for appt setting or testing. See, when I do start, I have to call and make an appt for day 3 to do blood work. Because of the holidays, the office is closed some days. I might be able to go to Sandy, an hour + away, to get it done, but I really can't leave work to do it, so I just don't know. It would be ideal if I could start today, honestly.

The waiting is always the worst part... sure hope I don't have to do much of it!!! Love you, baby!

~mommy

Today was the last day of Provera!

A little TMI for ya... 

all I want for Christmas is my period!

Plan A-

Maserati, we got a plan in place! I am going to start Provera 10mg for 10 days to start my cycle. On day 1 of my cycle, I will call to schedule the following testing for day 3:

• baseline ultrasound
• blood tests
• OAR
• TSH
• FREE T4
• PROLACTIN
• hgbAIC
• Testosterone
• DHEA SULFATE
• ask about AMA?

You don't have to understand any of that- Heck, I don't even understand it. But, like I did with Hudson, I want to document all procedures and medications. 

After testing is done, they will give me a prescription for Metformin (Glucophage) and Femara. The same hormones I had with Hudson. We will do an IUI procedure, just like with your brother. Daddy and I are ready, so we are just jumping in head first. This is so exciting!! 

The doctor was a nice fella and I am excited to work with him. He said we will try this strategy for 3 months or so, and if we need to, we will try something else. But, with the luck of 12-12-12, we are thinking positive and wishing for quick results! 

We did learn one thing that kind of bummed me out- our OB/GYN, Dr. Randy Alejo, has moved out of state. He was wonderful and made my birthing experience a positive one. I sure hope we can find someone as personable and understanding as he was. Something I have learned from our first go-round though- if I don't like the doctor, I WILL NOT stay with them. Our first OB/GYN was terrible and I stuck it out for 6 months. Changing to Dr. Alejo was the best thing I did and I will not hesitate to do it ever again. Pregnancy is important and delicate and should be treated as such, so I will find a doctor who agrees and makes me feel that way. 

And so, here we go! Good luck to US, baby Maserati! 

12/12/12

I hadn't thought about it when I made the appointment, but today is 12/12/12. I am not a superstitious person, but, I had to smile when the radio said today was a day of "rebirth" and "positive change." I sure hope so!! Seems like a good day to start this new adventure!

Love you, baby Maserati!