5 weeks

Some pregnancy symptoms I seem to be having:

• Peeing a lot, go figure
• Warmer body temp than normal
• Heightened sense of smell
• Emotional- so happy, scared, excited, etc, but every feeling leaves me on the verge of tears

Daddy and I have each told a few people at work and outside our normal circle of friends. It's kind of fun having this secret together! But it's also sooooo hard! A part of me just wants to shout it to the world. But I think we are going to hold onto it for a little while. We have our first ultrasound with the fertility clinic on Monday, March 18, which is still a week and a half away. It would be neat to just wait until after that- it might feel more real. I still find myself doubting it, worrying about it. 

We did have some fun reveal pictures taken on Sunday though. We were doing pictures of Hudson anyways, so we just added a fun family picture. Hudson is very much into sports right now, so we did some football, basketball and baseball pictures. For the reveal, I made a Home Plate that says "Li'l slugger coming home fall 2013!" and daddy and I wore Ogden Raptor Jerseys and Hudson held a baseball bat. Hoping we got some cute ones. Your big brother was being silly and a little ornery, so we will see. 

Love you,

~mommy

Everything looks great!

My hCG levels are excellent, meaning you are there, baby M, and growing strong! At 4 weeks, the hCG levels are expected to be 5-426 mIU/ml... you are reading at 806!! At 3 weeks, the hCG levels are expected to be 5-50, and your perfect brother was reading right at 50... which makes me think you are an overachiever just like him! Sure hope so, kiddo, 'cuz I have high expectations after Hudson. I know you will be your very own individual, with your very own personality and perfections, but, I sincerely hope you are as easy of a baby as Hudson has been. Wow, this is real!!!

YAY!!

I got my positive at-home test on Saturday! Actually, there was a very faint line, on a dollar-store test on Friday... I assumed it was just a cheap test. Saturday morning, I tried another dollar-store test and it was a little darker, but still very faint. Saturday afternoon, it was even darker. I showed daddy, and he saw it too, so we thought we were getting closer. The error-proof, not-so-cheap test verified it for us! You are on your way, baby Maserati! I will go to the fertility clinic today at lunchtime to get a blood test done, to check levels. They will probably check them again in a couple days to verify growth- they did with Hudson. I am so excited! And nervous!! I love you already, baby M, but is it even possible to love you like I do Hudson?!? Other moms of multiples say it is, so I am going to believe them and just imagine how much love I am truly capable of! This is going to be an amazing journey, darlin'. My calculations set you to be due on November 4, which means you will likely be here around Halloween! So exciting!! I told daddy we have to start brainstorming some awesome costume ideas, something where you can either be bump or baby! Thank you for choosing me, baby. I love you!

Just peed on another stick. Still nothing. I really felt like today was the day.

Knock, knock, is there anybody there?

It's premature, of course, but I think you are there baby. I was woken up at 3 am this morning, with a "full" feeling in my stomach- not "I-ate-too-much-Full" but something different. Like a "something's-there-Full." It was kind of an amazing feeling. Like I could already feel you. Like we were already communicating. If you are there, little one, I am so excited for our journey! I can only imagine the communicating we will do from here on out. I hope when you hear my heart, you know it's full of love for you. I love you!

~mommy

Let's go again!

I am pretty busy today, what with making a baby and whatnot... 

I had another IUI done today, and the nurse was really excited about our chances. She said that daddy's sample was excellent and my follicles look developed and ready. So let's do this! Wish us luck!!!

Well, baby Beck #2, today is cycle day #12 and I still don't have a smiley face on my ovulation sticks. Just a big old empty circle. See, I don't buy the cheapies, even though ya just pee on 'em, no, I want the smile, and then, when I am testing for pregnancy, I want the words. So, when I used my last stick yesterday, I had to go buy new ones. $60 for 30 sticks to pee on. I figure this next rounds got to work now, so I won't even need most of those. It's called irony. So, along with said irony, I figure I will probably get my smile tomorrow, Saturday, meaning that once again, we will probably have to travel to Sandy for the IUI, rather than going to our local Clearfield office, since we changed doctors this go-round for the "convenience." We are quickly learning that you do not believe in "convenience." Eh. I know you are worth it, so we'll keep going on your schedule. 'Cuz we love you, already. And always will.

love, mommy!