Just peed on another stick. Still nothing. I really felt like today was the day.

Knock, knock, is there anybody there?

It's premature, of course, but I think you are there baby. I was woken up at 3 am this morning, with a "full" feeling in my stomach- not "I-ate-too-much-Full" but something different. Like a "something's-there-Full." It was kind of an amazing feeling. Like I could already feel you. Like we were already communicating. If you are there, little one, I am so excited for our journey! I can only imagine the communicating we will do from here on out. I hope when you hear my heart, you know it's full of love for you. I love you!

~mommy

Let's go again!

I am pretty busy today, what with making a baby and whatnot... 

I had another IUI done today, and the nurse was really excited about our chances. She said that daddy's sample was excellent and my follicles look developed and ready. So let's do this! Wish us luck!!!

Well, baby Beck #2, today is cycle day #12 and I still don't have a smiley face on my ovulation sticks. Just a big old empty circle. See, I don't buy the cheapies, even though ya just pee on 'em, no, I want the smile, and then, when I am testing for pregnancy, I want the words. So, when I used my last stick yesterday, I had to go buy new ones. $60 for 30 sticks to pee on. I figure this next rounds got to work now, so I won't even need most of those. It's called irony. So, along with said irony, I figure I will probably get my smile tomorrow, Saturday, meaning that once again, we will probably have to travel to Sandy for the IUI, rather than going to our local Clearfield office, since we changed doctors this go-round for the "convenience." We are quickly learning that you do not believe in "convenience." Eh. I know you are worth it, so we'll keep going on your schedule. 'Cuz we love you, already. And always will.

love, mommy!